Living in constant anxiety

Anxiety

A feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome.

I’ve been living with constant anxiety for the best part of 2 months now. Truth be told, I’m not sure of the right way to start a blog post like this – but I’ve been through a very rough time recently. Going to sleep and waking up are the two hardest parts of my day.

Should I sink or swim, or simply disappear?

Every morning, I wake up before my alarm. My eyes shoot open, and the anxiety sets in immediately. I feel sick, I’m shaking, and I don’t want to get out of bed.

I’ve never felt like this before, and I absolutely hate feeling like this. I’m exhausted all of the time due to worries about what’s going to happen in the future. I know a lot of people would respond back to me with “You need to live in the now and not worry about what’s going to happen later.” Everything is uncertain, and that’s what makes me scared at night.

Sleeping on my own sucks – I absolutely hate being in an empty house, I hear every creak, bump and bang in the night. I have a white-noise generator which helps a bit, since I can’t sleep in silence either.

I can’t drown my demons, they know how to swim.

Talking to people about what I am going through only serves as a reminder to what I am experiencing, and sometimes it is hard to explain exactly what is affecting me so much. It seems everyone has been though the same though – it’s just my turn now.

Music helps me a lot. It’s therapeutic to get lost in the sounds of my favourite artists, and for that brief moment, I am free of this horrible mental burden.

Breathing techniques are also helpful in relieving temporary anxiety, but it will only last for a few minutes after you’ve finished the breathing exercise.

If you know if anyone who suffers from anxiety – please let them know that you’re there for them, and give them a hug (if it doesn’t make them worse).

For more information, please visit the following websites:
AnxietyUK
Mind
Headspace

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Matt Arnold

Snake-keeper/Sysadmin

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