Really wish that I didn’t care about you anymore, but I do.
I saw another picture of you today while browsing through old pictures.
You could find another me tomorrow, and that’s the hardest pill to swallow.
I didn’t feel as bad as I did yesterday when I saw your picture.
I’m still not sure how I feel about everything.
To have everything taken away from you in an instant, with no warning, everything gone… A feeling I cannot describe through words.
The damage is done, it is long lasting, and it hurts.
I’ve been taking with my friends at every opportunity. I won’t mention names. You know who you are, and you have helped immensely. People who have done their absolute best to try to understand what I’m experiencing.
As I lay in bed tonight, I am reminded of how amazing my friends and family are.
I hope one day that I feel differently about you. True love is not a fleeting feeling, it lasts for a long time.
The scars are real, they will not heal for a long time.
So come rain on my parade
‘Cause I want to feel it
Come shove me over the edge
‘Cause my head is in overdrive
Goodnight everyone. A new day dawns tomorrow. Hopefully a better one.